e.t. uncoded

when i say it’s okay, it usually is.

when i say s’okay, it might be.

when i say s’okay… it probably isn’t.

when i say s’ok… it really isn’t.

if i just type k, something is really wrong.

ok never means okay.

that aim status i had once that said sometimes spelling means more than the words themselves, was referring to how my usage of proper spelling and grammar declines with my mood / stability. letters other than i and a are not words.

when i say i’m ready to give up, listen. i might mean more than i’m letting on.

if i seem pissed at you and storm off, chances are i just need to get away. don’t worry, i’ll come back when i’m calm.

my mood can switch with little more cause than a feather needs to flutter or move. it happens instantly. in all directions. and no i’m not faking it.

it may seem like i don’t care. i do. and i’m sorry. i don’t mean to hurt you. though chances are i will. and trust me, that only makes me feel worse.

i’m sorry…